resurrection...

well, its been a long hiatus from blogging. those of you who know me well know how absolutely crazy life has been in the past few months with all that has gone on between myself and brad, and on top of it all, let's throw the holidays in there for fun as well....oh yeah, and having another baby AND moving out of state. nothing is ever easy, thats for sure!

anyway, to catch everyone up, brad (baby's father) and i are no longer together. if you know me well, you know the reasons. if you dont know me well, then the reasons dont really matter. it was difficult being a newly single mom of a 1 year old and also being super pregnant. but somehow i managed to do it without anyone going completely crazy (although that might be debatable), and on january 1st, 2010 i had another beautiful baby. one thing i can say without a doubt...even though brad and i might not make a good couple, we certainly make beautiful little girls! :) of course, i am biased, but i swear if you have ever seen pics or seen them in person, you would probably agree with me.

to go into more depth, i was aiming for a VBAC, which is a vaginal birth after cesarean. i had gotten some amazing doulas (highly recommend getting a doula if you can!) and was well prepared for a natural birth. well, in typical murphy's law style, after 9 hours of drug free labor, i had to have a c-section because of pain i was having by my previous c-section scar. however, the result of all this was a cute little baby girl, who we named suriah elizabeth. she was 7lbs 6oz and 21 inches long. i left the hospital early, during one of the biggest snowstorms of the year. it was a VERY stressful drive home. suriah has been such a sweet baby, with lots of smiles and she started sleeping through the night at 8 weeks old. we have had some trials and tribulations in the 2 months she has been around...first dealing with her pooping blood. yep...pooping blood. a little freaky to discover. not exactly what you want to see in your baby's diaper 2 days after returning home from the hospital. turns out she is severely allergic to some stuff...which at this point we think is dairy related products. however, i originally had to cut out all dairy, soy, seafood and tree nuts out of my diet in order to keep breastfeeding. and if i chose not to bf anymore, the formula was super expensive...

i am proud to announce that we have been successfully exclusively breastfeeding for over 2 months now and i have worked soy, seafood and tree nuts back into my diet. still waiting on the dairy, and still figuring out what i can eat. we had some issues with her not being able to latch correctly in the beginning but have since worked things out...

so...after having suriah, things have gotten even crazier. i had to try to pack up my house with a 1 year old and newborn, and move in with my parents in MA. yeah, you read that right...i moved home with my parents at 31 years old. not really something i am proud of, but i am thankful they welcomed me back home and are willing to adjust their whole lives to help accomodate me and my girlies. its still an adjustment for all of us and it hasnt been easy, probably for any of us.

now that i am "home", my main purpose of blogging is useless. it was to keep everyone at home updated on me and emerson. now that we are around all these people, my purpose has changed. i am blogging for me and my girlies...for memories.

so blogging has been resurrected....with a new purpose and a new name. i am now outnumbered by my kids....haha.